Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters,
But it must be said again that all us boys are just screaming,
Into microphones for attention,
Because we're just so bored.

We never knew that you would pick it apart,
I'm falling apart to songs about hips and hearts.

I know this hurts, it was meant to,
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one,
And it's mind over you don't, don't matter.

~Fall Out Boy~

Ohayo!

Today I found out certain things which I am quite happy even it was a brief moment. A good timing indeed to lift my spirits up with the coming deadlines. Deadlines given to me which is soo tough to handle unless I'm an 'Energizer Bunny'.

Morning

Manage to complete a long winding email thats related with a maintenance contract renewal. The details from objective, background, cost, service, consumable items and frequency. After a thorough review and 'spelling check', sent it to the Finance Department head honcho for endorsement. And the reply I got was a "golden question" which I couldn't answer since my cubicle 'neighbour' is on-leave. Aduhai....

She answered my email and I felt something has brighten my day. We chit chat non-stop via email until I had to stop the 'magical' flow. If not no work will be completed up till lunch time.

Lunch

Brought myself only jambu batu and a glass of teh 'o' ais limau while the rest ate rice with some local dishes. Zam was so intense with badminton that we decided to form a group called "PBU". The initials for Persatuan Badminton Underground....hahaha.

While waiting for the work hour to start, I had a friendly match of darts with S*'s top single players which represents the organisation during state tournaments and MOF games. I'm surprised at myself to be able to cope with their skills on "running" and "checking". Thanks to their confidence for putting me in the S* team for MAKSWIP. It was an eye opener event for an 'underdog' like myself ^_^.

Afternoon.

Pack-up things for HR since they're have an education fair at UIA, Gombak the next three days. I was suppose to follow the HR team to set-up booth but I rather stay in office to complete my 'important' projects. During my tea-break at the cafe, she was there and i couldn't stop smiling to myself...her looks is darn cute!!.

At my cubicle, emailed her about having such cuteness like a cat and she backfired me on why must she be similiar to an animal. Answered everything and asked her a 'good' question that ends up with an 'excellent' reply....yahoo!! I told my bestest buddies about the good news and they all gave me good blessings...sounds like a 'holy' thing plak..

Apa-apa pun I am still single ^_^......curious?

Starless

What I'm really trying hard to get down to words,
Is the way I fit into this world,
Things I survived pushed me to the darker side.

Because of the life as it was,
The life that was yours,
Should've been mine,
But I never could take anymore of this.

'Cause I'm always gonna get,
Gonna get down to the floor,
It's a cold gun that I kiss,
'Cause I cannot break anymore.

~Crossfade~

Afro Gunso

Life has been treating me normal these days. Let's put it this way:

• The 'underdog' manage to defeat 'otais' in a state dart tournament however loss to 'newbies' in company's inter-house dart game..uwekkkk!


• Thanks to my WoW addiction, I'm able to save lots of money by not buying mangas or anime boxsets as often as I usually do....oil price!


• I wonder why my friends (girls) are actually someone's girlfriend, fiancee, wife or mother....very dangerous!


• The girls that I like always ends up loving someone else and there is someone who likes me but I'm unable to reply that same feeling...sooo karma!


• Chances are always infront of my eyes but destiny kept me from reaching that moment...ouch!


• For the first time in my life, I actually notice a specific month in this year where everyone I know has its own break-up moment...whats going on!


• I'm always a low profile guy but always ends up in a high profile group/gang...chunn!!!


• Someone that I know posted my comments/answers related with love and friendship in her blog...no comment =P


• I'm trying to improve my life bit by bit......self awareness!


• I have not blog for a long time and suddenly I'm posting this post thanks to that certain someone....wachaa!


• Thanks to Skype I am able to converse with my aussie/kiwi friends while battling evil minions in WoW...what! I can't hear you!


• My entertainment essentials are all under Sony (PSP, Playstation, Mp3 Player and etc)....all i got is a point system card..erk!

The list can go on but lets make it up to here.^_^

My younger brother on his first salary brought 'Sergeant Keroro' boxsets as part of his stress relieve method. This is an anime which is fill with laughter, cuteness, stupidity, sadness, love and last but not least...frogs.

Yes I do admit that I'm hooked with space invaders that are frogs with different talents and skills. Sadly the leader is waaaay bit 'slow' yet has the same hobby as myself from Gundams to Mangas...Hahaha...

Ehem! Afro Gunso! Afro Gunso!...hmmm the bachelor life of me..

Cold

I never really wanted you to see,
The screwed up side of me that I keep,
Locked inside of me so deep,
It always seems to get to me.

I never really wanted you to go,
So many things you should have known,
I guess for me theres just no hope.

I never meant to be so cold

~Crossfade~

Blado Donato

*Don't read this post if you can't stand gory pictures..hahaha*

This morning I had a short meeting with the creche supervisor and my big boss. We discussed on certain issues and no headaches were created later. What a relieve!

Blood Donation day today at the S* and as usual I will bring out my little red book from the deep corners of my drawer. This book has a record of how often I donate blood to the 'Tabung Darah Negara' and I've never brought out this book from my workplace. And most of the donation happens in the S* itself.

Went to the Exhibition Hall to check out the crowd and saw Syeda, Farah and Jo (lying down ready to donate her life..er..I mean blood). I've thought of asking Syeda to donate blood the same time with me but then again I was too late..lol. I knew if I were to go through the screening procedure they will tell me to take breakfast first and come back in 20 minutes. I haven't had any meal so as expected I went to 'tapau' my breakfast and ate at my cubicle.

Emailed Syeda to tell her my intentions this morning, to my surprise she herself need to take breakfast and come back later for the blood donation. We agreed to meet up at the hall at about 10.21 am.

It was time to donate and as I arrive Syeda was already in the queue of people waiting to donate their life..I mean blood. Register was easy as stated below:

1. Fill up the form and a card (the card is only for first timers or without the red book). I myself am a regular doner so no card for me.


2. First step of screening, they will check your blood type by making a very tiny miny wound to the flat surface on one of your fingers. Just a fast and short pinch with an antiseptic needle. Don't worry about the pain, is a short moment and you don't need to scream actually..hahaha. They will press the finger to bring out a lil blood so that they take it via some tool and do some test. I found out from my colleague who organizes the donation drive that if the blood drop sinks in the blue liquid at a fast rate it means no donation for the person today. This blue liquid is contained in a transparent container located just next to the tester guy. Asked my colleague why and her answer was "Dunno"...


3. Next would be the blood pressure, if its too high they will tell you to take a rest for 10-20 minutes and come back later. Mine was a bit high and they doctor gave me a 'green light' to proceed.


4. Now the data entry part, the lady behind the laptop silently types in information as I pass her my form. The only words she said was "Sila teruskan"....


5. Ermm..I think i may have make this post too long so lets make it short.


6. Sat on chair, fold up sleeve, check for blood veins, apply 'cool' liquid with cotton, insert needle and the blood flows.

Completed the donation procedure and the nurse ask me whether I have any headaches and I said no. The nurse beside her asks her if I'm alright since I look pale. So to make certain I won't faint they arrange my sitting position that my legs were facing upwards while I rest.

As usual they will put a plaster on my wound and advice me to have some refreshments (standard procedure I presume). I have been donating blood for five times in S* since 2004 and I've never had a minor experience of paleness, sitting with leg upwards a bit and a 'lebam' at my arm. Hehehe wanna see the pic after I pulled out the plaster....

A - Is the spot where they put the needle.

B - The 'lebam' which will be gone in 2 weeks or less

And the end of it all, theres nothing to be worth worrying about. No death's, no screams, no yelling...and whatever you can think of can happen during a blood donation session. The doctors and workers are professional at what they do and they will know if you are eligible to be a donor. Last advice is of course to never ever...ever...ever lie to yourself when filing up the form.

Careless mistakes you might take it lightly but puts a heavy burden on the blood receiver.

^_^

I'm still searching on a rave tune/beat that was one of my favourites during college days and till now I can't remember who was the DJ...was it Paul Van D**, Armin Van B*** or Tiesto. Anyway Monday is here..so...guess I'll see some moody faces at work...lol.

Felt like posting this video eventhough is old but heck!...gotta think positive or you might end up sick.

Enjoy!



Paul Van Dyk - We Are Alive

Aduhai

Most of my music CD collections are original and don't ask why I am willing to spend that much money on them.

~

I have friends who borrow the CD's and returns them in good condition untill came this one guy....

~

Let's name him Mr. "F" and please be reminded that it does not relate to anything which is dirty or vulgar. Is just that "F" is stated in-between his real name.

~

On one sweet day, he was looking through my CD collection and was wondering if he could lend my MCR Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge album. I as usual being the nice guy for sure have said yes with a smile.

~

Today he returned my CD and as I put it in my computer's CD player, the played music was not smooth and I thought it could be the player. My guess was wrong as the track progresses, it gets worse and I start to feel soooo frustrated. My colleague who sits next to my cubicle told me to bring out the CD because the music sounds irritating.

~

Well from the looks of the CD, scratches and fingerprints all over the silver surface (area where the laser reads..lol...you do know what I'm talking about right?). This is going to be tough for the next person who wants to borrow one of my CD's...sigh.

~

Tension siut!

X Syiok

Warghhhh...I know everyone has his/her own good and badside but why this person that I know is sooooooooo lazy. I can understand if you can't read english, can't write and can't use the computer. Gawd!!! for goodness you're a SEO (Senior Executive Officer) ranking person and if you can't do it, ask your subordinates to help..but Nooo!...I have to do it. Plus I'm not even if your department.....arghhhhh! If murder was legal, I'll be happy :) ....hahaha


On the happier side, can't wait to get myself Armin Van Buuren 's 10 Years. I saw it once in a music store and told myself to buy it next week but somehow it was no longer in stock. So I told myself "hmmm...I'll search for it some other time" and it has been few months I did nothing at all about it. Last night while listening to Tiesto, suddenly I thought about it and quickly put a task/reminder in my PDA.

Now my PDA will remind me not only on contracts and events but also this CD...me soooo naive..or was it 'jakun'....right? ^_^

Tag Tig Tog Kedebunk!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Last night it was no one but about an hour ago it was Raja with his friendly jokes

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Woke up, look at my HTC's time, go back to sleep for 15 mins, then woke up again...hahaha so weird ain't it

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Myself and Raman went to first floor to check out the donated clothes for auction next week

4. What happened to you in 2006?
I've transferred to another department, people say I've changed to a much friendlier personality... gee wiz dunno why

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Sh*tlar like dis!

6. How many beverages did you have today?
A small cup of 'teh tarik', two small bottles of 'True' mineral water and one Nescafe Ais bungkus. So that makes 4 beverages I had today.

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Purple.

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Three mangas from Amazon.

9. Where were you last night?
Eastern Plaguelands...oops sorry...at home of course ^_^.

10. What color is your front door?
My room is pale yellow whereas the house is dark brown...so which one arr?

11. Where do you keep your change?
In my pocket....duh!

12. What’s the weather like today?
Nice and not too hot.

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Anything as long it has vanilla and a mix of any nuts. I soooo dislike mint even in chocolates.

14. What excites you?
Japanese food and C0-op Games.

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
Yupp, maybe this weekend.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Yupp but i don't act my age...muahaha.

17. Do you talk a lot?
Nope.

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Depends. Nice to watch but not a true fan.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Ermm...the malaysian Steven Lim and Kedai Makan Steven..hahaha

20. Do you make up your own words?
basket = bastard, tnmch = t*u ni* ma ch*w ha* and some vulgar ones

21. Are you a jealous person?
Depends on situations but most of the time no.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’
Anri Alwi

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’
Kamarul

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
My high school classmate who is getting married tomorrow - Pei Sing.

25. What does the last text message you received say?
So its not sc gossip la? Coz your right, sc gossip damn a lot la!

26. Do you chew on your straw?
No. There is a reason why chewing gum was created..right!?

27. Do you have curly hair?
No. I have straight and light (according to stylist) hair

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
Thrallmar...ermm I mean home.

29.Who’s the rudest person in your life?
Can't tell who because most of them are still my friends...sheesh!

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Mihun Goreng with sotong balls

31. Will you get married in the future?
Entahlah?

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Meet the Spartans...HAHAHAHA!

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Shhhh....not sure actually...got other things to think of

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Yesterday night after dinner.

35. Are you currently depressed?
Depress no, a lil bit wacky yes :S

36. Did you cry today?
Nope.

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Just to waste some time during office hours :P...Friday marr

38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
Dreamcatcher, Meewuargh, Tailou, JP, PinkyFins and Princess Feline

Let Me Go

I suddenly thought about CT since her birthday is next month plus her confession a few months back. I've kept saying the same thing over and over but she insists that her feelings remain the same...sigh. With that I express my feelings through this song and hopefully she reads this post....



~
One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

CHORUS
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me
And you love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
And I know what I'm going through

CHORUS

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, just let me go

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know who I am

(you don't know)
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
(you don't know)
You love me but you don't know me
~

Short Not001

Two days of photo shoot and today I am off the schedule……yippee! (hehe…sorry bro) and yet I’ll be on standby for tomorrow and Friday (erghh!).

Sweet DeeDee has left the building (resigned-ler) and her last words to me was “Thanks for everything, especially when it really mattered ;)”……uhuk uhuk me so sad….

Well actually is an email with some other few words that was sent to friends and close colleagues in my company.

Hahaha…me so perasan….by the way Suhaila and Nabilla look gorgeous yesterday….adoi!

Game On

I have been playing World of Warcraft (WoW) since late December last year and honestly it is still a great past time for me to spend at home.

Been creating numerous characters ranging from different races and classes finally ends up with two committed characters. One is a Night Elf Hunter and the other a Blood Elf Paladin with both on the same server but different faction.

After levelling my Hunter for quite sometime I notice that being such character does have its ups and downs. Hunters being famous for its long range attacks and strong pet companions are excellent at grinding areas alone however it can be lonely at certain times. Any hunting groups or raiding parties considers a hunter to be their last option in any situation. With such environment, playing a Mass Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game (MMORPG) can be boring without any interaction with other players. Don’t get me wrong, is not that I don’t communicate but there is a difference when saying “hi, how are you” to friend and saying “I’ll lure them up and you support me with everything you got!” to your team-mate.

Froze my Hunter character and start anew with a Paladin which I knew will get numerous invitations and I wasn’t wrong at all. I was able to level up my Paladin faster than my Hunter thanks to quest co-op and dungeon raids.

Last night my team consists of a Mage, a Priest, a Rogue and a Paladin like myself stormed Shadowfang Keep which its inhabitants are giant wolves, werewolves, banshees and restless souls. Everything went well at first with two tankers (me and the other Paladin), a range damage dealer (Mage), a range healer (Priest) and a stealth scout (Rogue) however not all is perfect.

Our Rogue kept ‘aggroing’ the enemies to the team’s area and somehow it irritates us all. If only we were able to communicate via headset, I’ll be shouting “Oii!, don’t be a hero and march in alone, I know you got stealth skills f*&^$%r”. To end our frustration, we communicate to each other in whisper mode and let the Rogue go forward and die alone. True enough, he went in alone while all of us ran far far away from him and he died. All of us laugh and he left the team quietly (disconnect from server). If you would like to know how a WoW character laugh, just type /laugh (in the game) and you will hear a sarcastic laughter that goes with the characters face and body expression.

At the end of the raid, we met Archmage Arugal and he was a tough bugger to be dealt with especially with his arcane spells and teleportation. The fight was brutally hard but thankfully we have a Mage and a Priest that knows how to handle dire situations since their armour being the most weakest. With Arugal’s death, we cheered and greet each other farewell hoping there would be another co-op in the near future.

If only my lil brother knew why I was laughing in front of the laptop…hahaha..

~My current Paladin profile : D~

SC Annual Dinner 2007

At first she was my table partner and then she made plans without informing me. It had to be someone else that informs me about the changes. I'm so dissapointed with her. We are just friends yet somehow I don't deserve the respect of a good friend.I don't mind if she changes her seating place because is her own choice and freewill. After trying to stay cool and not being angry at her, I think for awhile and then I realise something. I'm part of the organising committee and for surely i have no time for her except during the event session. Plus she does not recognise those that sits around my table. Hmmm...maybe i'm going overboard with this matter, oh well.....what happened has happened..life goes on i suppose ^_^.

I'll be alone at my table...sob sob...with my committee members : P.

Incoming!!!

Just to inform you readers about some changes :-

1. Blog layout content will be change, I mean the right side panel only
2. Still updating my Gaminaco website which is the better version of Gaminez...soo currently some Gaminez files are transferred to Gaminaco. You might find some files missing or pictures or text or whatsoever.
3. I got so many ideas to post but still need to find the right time to post them all unless I forgotten about it
4. I'll be visiting my facebook account most of the time, feel free to find me there if you know my real name..ahaks

That's all lar kot...till then Selamat Berpuasa to my muslim friends

Tag Tig Tog

Got this idea from Syira's blog, well actuallty she got it from her big bro or was it the other way around or....aaah what the heck..here goes...

5 things in my bag - what bag? Office Bag

1. An unopened envelope from HSBC - another credit card waiting to be used
2. House keys
3. Thumbdrives - I honestly don't know why I put all three in there
4. Recycle paper
5. PSP - shhhhh.... my side activity if lazy to do work

5 things in my wallet

1. RM50 - in small notes
2. Maybank card
3. Identification card - if anything happens at least people know who am i....gulp!
4. Sushi King card - nyum nyum
5. Business cards of my close friends

5 favourite things in my room

1. Manga collection - preciousssss
2. Bed - hellooo?
3. Computer
4. Dragon Raja Online poster
5. Small gundam model kits

5 things that I wish to do

1. Get a house - insyallah
2. Complete my manga collection
3. Find that special someone
4. Learn how to cook like Jamie Oliver
5. Have life without 'hutangs' - uwekkkkk!

5 things I'm doing at the moment

1. Listening to Cold and Jaded by Adema
2. Downloading games for my PSP
3. Transferring movie files from my friend's external harddrive
4. Yawning
5. Shaking my head up and down with medium speed...haahaha

5 people I want to tag

1. Meewuargh
2. Brien
3. Buddybamf
4. Drifter
5. laaaa....the one that just added my blog url in her blogroll tuhhh

Three C's

I was bored and unable to log in to my Friendster account due to some problem with their system or someone has hack it and made it inaccessible to me. Reported the problem and the only option left according to their lengthy email is to create a new account. Oh well….back to the drawing board.

Anyway as I was browsing my friend’s profile in Friendster, can’t help to notice a familiar face among her group of friends and it was Lyn from my workplace. There wasn’t that much in her profile since she joined Friendster like a month ago. The only detail that caught my eye is her status which is ‘single'.

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Minutes later I emailed her about it and ask why she does not have a boyfriend/special someone and the answer was “I’m a person who is quite easy to be friends with but at the end of the day; I will judge and make the ‘call’”. Hmmm…a picky person isn’t she but then again my reply was “Is wise to be selective because is your life yet sometimes being too picky is kind of dangerous”. Plus I even told her that she got the looks but then again who am I to judge and assume that she already has one secretly = P.

*

Later on she gave a remark about me and yet I can’t figure out whether it is true or not as I kept giggling (in a disbelief manner) in front of the monitor.
*

She said “You surely got admirers. The first time I saw you, I thought you were cute and you are still till now”. And she added “If people didn’t know you, they might think you’re cocky base on your facial expression but cute!!”. I told myself “Sure or noootttt?”

Ain't I cocky and cute enough for you, eyyy Buffy!

During tea-break asked Zaidi about the first impression that I gave when he didn’t knew me and he said “Cold”. The same question were given to my senior colleagues and their answer was either “Jaga Macho” or “Girls would not dare to be near me is like you already have lots of girlfriend”. Waaaaargh…….I didn’t know my normal face impression would give such message. My dad even agrees with the cocky part….Adoi!

The reason why I look cold is because no one wants to be friends with me.

Renee was the last person I ask and her answer was “You look cunning but before I knew you during college days, you look shy”. So I told her about Lyn and the rest of my friends that gave similar or different remarks. Adrian heard the conversation and labelled me three C’s which is Cocky yet Cute but Cunning. Three of us laugh out loud and I guess working in a certain department with such drama creates a certain aura around a person.

Me ship is fast and I'm a cunning captain, savvy!

At the end of the day, I might as well look like this.......Hahaha!

Gugu gaga?

Emperor

Tok Yah (grandfather) and Opah (grandmother) is coming to KL today and will be staying for a week at my house. This things usually happens only when my mom arranges a doctor’s appointment for him or someone here in KL is really sick or worst…..dying.

For this purpose, the prayer room also known as the guest room was cleared of dust and irrelevant items since last Sunday. Unfortunately, my customized bed had to be dismantled and rebuilt in the prayer room for the comfort of my grandparents. Of course I would be the one who does it and left with only a thick mattress to lie on…..

Food expenditure will surely going to cost more with Tok Yah being well known for his taste of good food. I don’t mind all that pricey dish but the most annoying thing that I would not like to see is when he picks up any food from the lauk with a spoon and put it in his mouth. After that place back the spoon into the lauk dish. Geli giler!!!

Nevertheless he is my grandfather and I’ve always love him no matter how wrong are his actions and words. When I was small, he treated me so well like his own favourite grandson but then again I ‘m the eldest among cousins and the only boy around…..hehehe. Plus he always defends me from my mom everytime something went wrong.

I am speechless when it comes to Opah who I admire the most among many. If I were to award her a title, it would be “Nenek Melayu Islam Terakhir”. She cooks good food, takes care of my little cousins (noisy bunch) with ease and able to handle Tok Yah’s attitude which is sometimes mind boggling…hahaha.

With the emperor around, going back home late night or even after 12 is going to be tough….if not he will start to blablabla with my parents and my parents will blablabla at me whereas I would be like yesyesyes.

Jakun Betul

Three weeks back, I made a purchase through Amazon.com and it will be my second time doing so via online. The first one was the time that I couldn’t find a Manga volume anywhere in PJ/KL. Possibility to pre-order from shops is there but it may take more than a month to arrive. Out of curiosity, decided to try out Amazon after an advice from a colleague of mine at work.


Two weeks later it arrived and I felt excited like a monkey who just got itself a new mobile phone..hahaha. Knowing the Manga content is meant for mature readers, who would have guess it could pass through customs…geeee how naïve I am.

This month, two Manga volumes were not available and again Amazon was my online vendor of choice. This time, besides the two volumes, I try to purchase a DVD box set of an Anime which is certainly not suitable for young kids and not a Hentai material at all.

The package from Amazon arrived safely to its designated location and surprisingly my DVD player was able to read Region 1 DVD format. All this while I’ve always assume that the player will not be able to read a Region 1 DVD but I was wrong and Brien was right…..hmpth!.

Hmmmm…whats next from Amazon.com….by the way, a wall of Ghost Warriors sure kicks ass!

~My teammates with their own Ghost Warrior from Mythwar Online~

Mothers Day

A nice Sunday night, "Mothers Day".....suddenly told to do house cleaning by mom. Dad watches football while younger bro goes to sleep early (yeah right!). Sweating like mad throughout the night, tomorrow is working Monday, feel like screaming at mom, but is not proper because is "Mothers Day". Stress and frustration builds up within self then came lil godsis at the front gate with a "Mothers Day" gift...urghhhh.